Blue in Spring

Chip Willis 2010


I feel like i am having a delayed Seasonal Depression this week, or for the past couple of weeks. And i feel guilty about it.
I should feel revived, and fresh...No snow on the ground, the day's last longer, i wake up to sun and birds chirping again.

It's possibly due to my body feeling stiff, and muscles feeling pain, I have grown tired of my hairstyle, Monkey isn't doing as well as she could be health wise.
I am having technical issues getting my new freelance site up and running.
all of these things are not entirely important but i just feel like crying and with no specific reason. However a few people around me seem to be having the same feelings as well. Maybe i am just being overly temperamental, it feels hormonal, and I am getting old, speaking of age, i think being with a younger man in a relationship is making me feel older lately. He wants to settle down, marry, kids, house..
and non of those things sound appealing to me, they stress me.
perhaps I am having some pre change of life thing, I feel irritable, cranky, short tempered sometimes angry and just emotional all at once.

I started taking a yoga class, but they up and moved after my 1st class and when i went to the 2nd one, the new place was cold in temp, so now i am waiting for the weather to get a little warmer before i go back, there is nothing worse to me than being cold.

I have no incentive to model lately, I am just not being as proactive about it.
I have one shoot in May in Vegas, and i just agreed to a shoot today for a later date. I am shooting 2 clients this weekend as well.

Other than my aches and pains, and Monkey's disease, I really don't have a reason to complain.